- 1:20 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

first lesson...
more like revision lesson...

finally the ironic feelings come face to face...
(or maybe back to face...)

i don't really know what can i say
it seems harder as we finally met up

guess alot of things will never come out of my mouth
things that can only remain inside my heart...

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《不能說的秘密》
作詞：方文山 作曲：周杰倫

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見
最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐(oh~~)

回憶的畫面 在蕩著秋千 夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠
又何必去改變 你說過的誓言
你用你的指尖 指示我說再見
想象你在身邊 在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽 只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀 這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現 這幸福的碎片 要我怎麼撿

- 12:49 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

had such a wonderful birthday this year...
1 whole week of celebrating and good food

fri went to Paulaner Brauhaus at Millienia Walk
http://www.paulaner.com.sg

had dinner at this german restuarant
with Weiliang, Danick, Jeanie, Jane and Kelly...

Birthday cake complimented by Kelly

so thick till it's enough for them to smash into my face so many times...

me & Kelly


me & Duck


me & Jeanie


After dinner, me, Jean and Kelly went to New Asia Bar~
first time being there...experience of being on 71th floor


yucky vodka lime...but nice apricot brandy 7up that Kelly recommended
the crowd there not really that spontaneous
age group older and alot of caucasian
can even spot people eating pizza and sashimi in there wor...

had quite some fun there though...

Sat went KTV...
after that liang dragged us to play pool at cuppage

dined at indonesian restuarant around PS
and went to a pool+ktv pub at Boat Quay

soccer in the morning and got drenched in heavy rain...
so long never had such feeling already...
exhausted with activities and i still went for blading...

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had a short msn chat with p today...
lesson's starting tomorrow
really hate this ironic feelings
happy that i finally get to see her after so long
yet unhappy to be seeing her
because i don't know how it will be when we see each other

will she still be as friendly as before to me or will i be invisible?
should i keep my distance or should i take my approach and talk to her?

we were never so distant from the first day we knew each other
even before i fell for her...we kind of clique off from the day we met...

now i really don't know how things will be...
she'll never be her again and i'm not the me either...

how will the new her and the new me see each other?
wish to know and scare to find out...
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- 12:01 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

been busier lately celebrating my birthday for the week...
missing out the few days of blogging

monday:
had sakae sushi with meng and shurong at bishan
shopped around bishan abit
both of them happily chatting about their partners...so envy...

tuesday:
shopped around with shuyi in AMK
then meng joined us to have dinner at AMK S11
satay bee hoon and bbq sotong...hehe...

wednesday:
planned to go home at bday mian xian by mum...
but last minute yingli-chan asked me out for dinner
first time she asked me out, so i went
had gelare waffles with her and sen at citylink


3 boring beings sat at gelare after eating
and the 2 of us started to irritate yingli till she wanna pengz


in the end when i reach home still have a nice bowl of mian xian to finish

today:
colleagues celebrated birthday for me and a few other colleagues whose birthday also fall on the same month

the cake was such a sinful one...
1cm thick of really chocolate coating covering the whole cake
with 2 equally thick layer of chocolate inside
and it's really soft chocolate, not chocolate cream...

meet lijing and sen for dinner...
so long meet lijing le...also very long never really talked to her...

really appreciated the outing today...

she's so nice to me...even though i never really treat her specially nice or talk to her much...
yet she treated me out for dinner and they even bought a nice casio watch for me...
was expecting just a nice dinner with them

dinner at Esplanade's Harry Steakhouse was nice
food not bad, serving ok, service also good, ambience nice, price cheap

this is the watch they gave me...photo not very clear but it's a nice watch " )


oh...forgot to mention the retail therapy result of a zara shirt and esprit tee...
damage done : $100

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ok...
time passed 12midnight already...actual birthday starts here...
took halfday leave to enjoy my birthday abit...
been blessed with friends and family...

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guess maybe i shouldn't expect or wish for anything to come from someone who had long forgotten about me...
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- 12:16 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

had a nice simple dinner as bday celebration...
just a simple swenson dinner at northpoint with mum, dad and sis...
felt nice...rarely have such dinner together...
even had an earthquake ice cream...

having a little problem trying to slot in programmes this week
busy week ahead...hope everything just come clear and work out
or maybe i should just isolate myself and disappear for this week

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felt weird to see her being happy
don't know whether should be happy or sad
is it that i'm really so selfish to want her to be sad
so that she'll find me better?

stupid thinking of mine just keeps going back to her...
anyway trying to refrain from msging, contacting her...
really don't know how to face her when school starts...
haiz...
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- 1:27 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

ok...finally back to blog after my 1 week ict...

had bruises and cuts and insects bites everywhere
guess i hurt or overstrained my left wrist also
kind of feel the pain when i exert strength

happy that i had passed my ippt...with a silver wor...
10 chinup..(abit of cheating though...whahaha...)
disappointed with stand board jump which i neglected

it's been a tough week of sufferings and tortures
but i must admit i enjoyed it somehow...

having friends (new and old) for company whole day whole week
suffer together and had laughters together...
thanks j for being the one there to answer to my sms while i'm bored
this week at least there were much lesser time for me to think of her

have been trying not to think of her
not to contact her, ignore her msn presence...
maybe j is right...i haben really get over her?

i know i'm damn dumb and stupid to keep thinking of her
she's no longer part of my life
she's already in part of someone else life
she's in happiness till she won't even have memories of me
so why am i still thinking of her? haiz...

memories are called memories because they are unforgettable
they are the only happy ones i truely had in my life lately
i believe no one can forget them until they experience new ones
and it's not forgetting but replacing your state of mind with new ones

guess my sis is also not feeling so well
going the same things in relationship...
but i really dunno what i can do for her
i'm not a good brother to start with...

major changes is happening in my life
too many bad and unlucky things is happening in my life
be it to me or to people around me

i guess things really won't be the same anymore
i dunno what am i becoming
making the fullest out of everyday
right now i'm almost willing to go out any day any time
making myself tired out, enjoying pple's company

might be going out again later...movies or clarke quay maybe...
as i said, i'll just almost go for anything nowadays...
even pubbing and clubbing...

still wondering what i wish for my birthday...
planning to go to the height of 72th floor...but when?
more money to spend...
but i guess i'm not really in the mood to care...

- 9:30 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

spent the day packing my way to ICT for the coming week...
horrible week to expect, wonder how will it end up

went retail therapy with j again...
lucky this time round never spent on anything
but actually shortlisted few things...wonder should i buy them?

met up with m for Harry Potter: Order of The Phoenix
standard dropping i suppose due to the modernisation
movie can no longer cover enough of the storybook

This is suppose to be a movie arrange to be watched with her
ended up we watch them on the same day
but different place, different people...

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Things that were lost will somehow find their way back

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ICT means i won't be around for this coming week...

- 1:12 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

been out for almost everyday these days
trying to avoid time alone as much as possible
seems that i can't take loneliness anymore

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met up with the 2 shoppers for retail therapy on friday
decided to shop before dinner so as to maximise shopping time
began with them spending $100+ each and me only $40+

the 2 fashion consultants gave me an image change
somehow it ended up me spending the most.. $200+
therapy ended with all 3 of us broke

decided to have cheap dinner and can't decide where to eat
in the end we went to p's place there to eat at 24hr kopitiam

missed that place...haven't been back there since 23June07...
been looking at every bus that passes by for chance to see p
had the urge to ask her come out join us
really misses the happy times and happy us
it's really impossible to let go of memories afterall...

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every Sat mornings seems so scary...
been getting bad intuitions which always so accurate

it seems that when you love someone
everything about that person is good and better than anyone else

hate it when similar input results in vast difference in output
life's just being not fair...

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anyway went to k's house
with new hairstyle and new clothes as requested
got harassed by jacky at her house

shop around orchard for k's necklace but in vain due to limited time
treated k to TCC at shaw...
had my favorite medium done teriyaki salmon
but it seems to taste not as nice as the one at NAFA TCC
is it the food that's different? or is it my mood? i dunno...

finally ended the day with Concert at Indoor Stadium:
The Year of Jacky Cheung World Tour 07

Jacky Cheung is still the god in singing afterall
Singing alone throughout the 3hr+ duration
yesh...3hr+ due to prolonged encore session

the concert wasn't that great at first
mainly because too much canto which we don't understand...
his voice seems weird also...abit coarse...
but there comes the musical play portion of the concert
it is so nice and special, so unique to be seen in a concert
overall the concert good is great

Great thanks to k for bringing me to the concert for free... " )

*still trying to collect photos from them to upload*

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愛
不是犧牲, 也不是佔有, 是成全

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我一直都在你

我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天回过头看我
我的笑送给你希望你快乐
你的难过都给我
关于你的一切我都好好收藏着

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- 1:03 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

適應 - 迷路兵

沒想過愛竟然會下落不明
寂寞都不忍心
故事的結局走不出背影
我只能靜靜地

風吹醒 那些曾經
轉過身我用眼淚聆聽

(我的) 心 該怎麽學會去適應
那些沒有你的安靜

我 也想小心地收起所有回憶
卻總是忍不住不斷地翻起
(你卻一直住在心裏 是誰都無法代替)

愛開始了該怎麽去喊停

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life's been really irritating...
low on good luck
high on bad luck
nothing's been smooth for me these days

lucky to still have nice friends to accompany me through...

Lunched at Cityhall Mos Burger " x
because need to get cake for colleague
in the end cake shop closed down already

dinner is sponsored by someone...korean dinner...
Hanseng Korean Restuarant @ Novena Square²



korean meal being korean meal is just so much
- the usual appetizer small dishes
which includes the yucky kimchi
- nice nice potato noodle (thick vermicelli)
- Beef Bulgogi with stone pot rice
- Ojimu tea (Citrus tea) nice
- Yujimu tea (Wu hua zi tea) taste like sour plum


the power shot that came the last
after we had already finish with everything other thing
- Ginseng Chicken (1 whole chicken!)..

2 of us ate till so full...haha...
reminds me of the food i had during my korea trip dec '06


whole day of full meals...so horrible...
i'm no longer the big eater i used to be already...
lucky still maintaining the weight there...

- 11:48 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

淚 - 迷路兵

深夜裏 無法習慣沒有你
不願意在走下去
這距離 痛得我不能呼吸

多少眼淚都無所謂
我閉上眼睛不能入睡
只希望你給我一些安慰

這些眼淚我無所謂
真心的對待最真貴
我會頭想起愛情的甜美
永遠不後悔

牽領我進入睡夢追隨
從溫過去 我們倆夢中相依偎
雖是夢幻 願沉醉

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我真的是在欺騙自己嗎？

可能她說得對，
我可能真的沒那麽偉大吧。。。

只希望沒想像中的那麽天真
成熟的面對與找回自己吧

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life's full of dilemna...
opportunities at a cost...taking it or leaving it?
why do i have to face up with so much difficulties in life
can't life be sweet and simple?

- 1:13 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

你的無奈 我知道你的心已不再
放開 這是最好的決定

你的愛已不再 我為什麽還在這發呆

我為什麽還愛你 為什麽還愛著你
不是我不放棄
是什麽原因 你狠心把我丟在這裡

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what's the difference between being nice and being stupid?
why am i always contradicting myself?

wanting to see that happiness
yet envy to find that it's never mine

wanting to keep my distance not to disturb that happiness
yet my heart is yearning painfully to be stay close

the stronger one becomes, the more challenges he had to face
is getting stronger for the sake of withstanding further tortures?

why is heaven being so unfair to poor souls who work so hard
when will the pain stops
is it necessarily to be pushed to total numbness?

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難道最美的愛情 就只能在回憶裏待續嗎？
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- 12:30 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

life's nvr the same anymore...
past were the times where my lonely heart felt satisfied...

after being lead to a life full of wonders and dreams
it seems so hard to go back to my lonely life anymore
felt my life is so lousy

i want some life
send more new people into my life please...
hope school start soon and i get some chance to know new people
hopefully more people who can cheer up my life like how it felt last semester

- 12:46 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

went to Eskibar yesterday night...
it's such a nice place...but don't dare to go back again le... " x
reason? made a fool out of myself there...
getting seriously drunk thanks to my 損友...
it's my first time and i hope it will be the last time i get drunk

surprised to found out how much they have made me drink
they actually made me drink finish the bottle of vodka and a waterfall!
it's a waste though because i have totally no idea and no memory of it

must really thank all of them for being there for me
sorry for the mess i have caused them...

maybe will post up some of the photos when i get it from them...

still feeling the after-effect of the alcohol
giddy + nausea + strange stomach feeling + tiredness

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things might have turned to the worst where all hopes dashed
but it really felt better now...
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- 11:13 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

07/07/07...
A beautiful day where special things happen
happiness filled the rest of the world outside mine

what isn't mine will never be mine
i never lost anything because i never really win anything before
everything till now, everything is only me
right now i can only accept everything

ironic feelings...
how should you feel when you lose the one you love so dearly
but what if losing is the only way to give happiness to others?
at least in this world, another happiness is found
hope that new found happiness will be treasured and appreciated

even though i'm not fortunate enough to own such happiness
i don't wish to see happiness turning into unhappiness

true love is the two-way connection between 2 hearts
it won't work in a one-way connection
but most importantly, be true to your heart and make the connection
nothing will ever work out if no initiating connection is made

for me, my heart had ran out of batt.
exhausted from making too much initiating connection
connections will not be made anymore with all lines closed
but there will always be a reserved connection line
always there always opened
reserved only for that particular heart

life's still long way to go...
who knows, maybe down this lonely road
this heart could be recharged again
maybe by the heart that was never meant to be
maybe by a new heart dropped from the heaven
but hope then it'll be a pair of connected hearts

- 12:00 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

Dine @ Central to celebrate song's bday

- 11:59 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

lost in the world of coldness...
getting sick of office life as days pass by
brain freezes with the atmosphere around me
warmth is a dream so far away

in the world of darkness...
what's left each day is looking forward for time to pass faster
only hope left is for something to happen, be it good or bad
only way out is to do nothing at all...
waiting for something that might never happen...

if things always happen for a reason...
why is the reason always hidden away from the world?
ain't endings suppose to bring forth the start of new beginnings?

are we really still not ready for each other even as friends?

i know expectation leads to greater disappointment
but without expectations, why are we still living?

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after a day of struggle, feels better to have at least somebody
to share some time with...

had a nice dinner at Ajiten @ Bugis Junction
(Jap. restuarant linked with Ajisen)

6 side dish meal for 2...great isn't it?

- delicious sliced pork egg omelette with cabbage
*even cabbage is cleanly swept out*
- asparagus pork wrap + ume pork + miso chicken sticks
- special fish in sort of a mushroom cheese cream sauce
- lastly the never enough Salmon Sashimi
*bland wasabi they served*

hehe...of course not to forget the sinful closing...
Jap Ice-cream dessert...

#peaches always taste sweet for sweeter people isn't it... " p

went into some retail therapy just before everywhere close shop...
got this cute massager to pamper myself abit in office...

too bad no batt to test run it yet...
super long queue in the supermarket...

need to start planning my empty weekends...
when can the never coming meet up happen...

- 11:51 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple.
Sometimes good bye's the only way.


With the end of my old wonderful memories,
comes the rebuilding of new memories, be it good or bad...


letting go is one of the hardest thing i have to do...
but getting back from where i fall is even harder...


it's tiring to clap with a single hand,
but its torturing to find yourself not even able to clap...


really hope time can answer my heart faster...


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when can i stop waking up early in the morning
and crying out "Ahh~!"
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- 12:53 AM -
:: I made my mark ::