Qn: What would you do if XX come back to you?
Ans: Love her and never let her go again...

when i asked myself this, i realise i don't know how to answer...
is it really what i want?
Maybe stay as friends is really better?

anyway enough of dreaming...
at least better than nightmares which horribly comes true and accurately

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陌路
张栋梁

我们都知道感情是盲目
我们都知道永远是虚无
再一步就看见爱迷路
每一次拥抱就换来糊涂

我们都知道拥抱已麻木
我们都知道相爱不能继续宽恕
再服输就让爱情变成荒芜
才发现我们只缺了个地图

也许爱不该让步 其实应该很清楚
我们的爱已经走到陌路

就让我们的爱情走到此结束
在一起没有幸福就很迷糊
来时不由自主

如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福就会满足让爱更清楚

我们都知道拥抱已麻木
我们都知道相爱不能继续算数
再服输就让爱情变成了荒芜
才发现我们只缺了个地图

就让我们的爱情走到了陌路
在一起没有幸福就很迷糊
来时不由自主

如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福就会满足让爱更清楚

我知道你知道不会再不认输
就让我们完成这完美的演出 WU～Oh～

那一刻当你说要离开的时候
其实我想要再给你拥抱 Oh～

就让我们的过去走到此结束
再一次走到幸福不再迷糊
我会永远在乎

如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福就会满足不再让你哭

- 1:00 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

WHY DOESN'T GOD FEELS TIRED PLAYING WITH MY LIFE!!!

i'm really tired...

tired of coping with work...
tired of being stuck between everyone at work...
tired of coping with my studies...
tired of quiz...
tired of assignments...
tired of stress...
tired of coping back to life...
tired of everything that's happening to me..
tired of everything that's happening to people around me..
tired of not able to get enough sleep...
tired of caring about other people's feeling...
tired of my own feelings...
tired of being just a small pawn...

can't i just sleep forever and ignore the whole world...
heck care about work, study, friends, family, colleagues, love...

- 1:01 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

The Night of Seven...
it's the 2nd 070707 this year and also the chinese valentine's day...

still figuring how to handle a relationship that have ended

making myself forget
fill myself up with whatever i can find
keeping myself busy

all these just seems to be avoiding the reality...
doesn't seems to be able to make me really happy again de leh...

*don't get me wrong...i'm not hanging on to that relationship...*

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Have been unlucky since my lucky charm left me...
nowadays it seems to be spreading to pple around me...
maybe it should be better that the unluckiness stay on to me...
don't affect pple around me ba...

think god is really playing with me...
taking even the only leftovers away from me...

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been clubbing abit lately...
definitely not me...but it's what i currently is...
not to worry...still under controlled self...
and i will not get myself dead drunk again!
at least not until everyone beside me get dropped dead first...haha...

coming weekend is clubbing again...zhao and kc birthday...
hope yanping will give up on trying to get me drunk...haha...
this time should try graveyard and hope got apricot brandy 7-up...
tried waterfall and lamborghini already...
sick of vodka...especially CRANBERRIES...

My gratitude to ah jean~
thanks for helping me find the adidas jacket for me...haha...
finally get the S Size proper adidas jacket that i like...

always seems to be unable to get things i like...
guess my taste is rather high ba...haha...

very hard to find things that can catch my eyes and my heart...



*going through the most happening period in the lowest point of my life*

- 6:31 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

finally...
i've got my very own Thinkpad X61
although it's not totally the ideal one i dream of...
but it's already quite sufficient...
it's so small and light...cool~

too bad can't get hold of the other set i'm buying...
fujitsu S6410U...it's actually out of stock!

left NTU and went off to ikea and eat at the legendary cafe there...

haha...ate quite alot...the meatball is nice~
yesh...me and jean ate that whole table of food...haha...




have really been spending and living my life like no tomorrow...
is it good or bad i don't know...
but i guess i'm getting tired soon of this un-me feeling...

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happy memories will not be forgotten...
mistakes should be remembered and not repeated...

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- 12:35 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

keyword of the day: OMG!

i'm really at a lost of what to say or how to react...

- 1:28 PM -
:: I made my mark ::

“自己矛盾的私心让我每天忧愁
只好就让你走

不明白 不明白
为什么我不能放得开
舍不得 这个爱
你是一生一世不会了解

我明白 我明白
在我心中你永远存在
或许你会有一天怀念
可是我已不在”

- 9:48 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

went to St James yesterday


the place was great except for the stupid long queues just to get into PowerHouse

imagine how dampening is such queues when you are suppose to get high at those places



oh...forget to mention the most expensive prata in singapore i've seen
price of 1x egg prata = price of 6x egg prata at jalan kayu
chose to eat a $9 mutton murtabak instead...at least more worth it...

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stupid day today...can't get what i wanted!

queued up at singtel hello shop to buy new phone
and they tell me HTC Touch is out of stock when initial they say they have!
they should really do something about their service standards!
people have to wait for long queues just to get queue no. which is another long wait
even worse, long queues just to find out there's no point in queueing!!!

finally got an Adidas jacket i want to get and it doesn't have my SIZE!
bad thing about being smaller size now...can't even get S size...
XS size actually fits for me well but just that it's abit short...

saw this cute tee at urbanmales
jean is so keen to buy for me and make me wear
haha...heng no stock...


front showing pic of poison and a msg "for my ex"
back showing a msg "9413 see you up there"

can't imagine if kelly saw me wearing that in school...

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Just not fated with things i ever wanted...
When heart, mind and reality is worlds apart, what should i do?
who is this i'm seeing...real, fake, new, old or original?

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- 12:54 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

想放弃却不能甘心放手
留你在梦中却苦痛了我
等著伤心不如学会承受
反正你不会是我的

想放弃却不能甘心放手
留你在梦中却苦痛了
我等你想起不如先忘记你
反正离开你的人是我

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wasteful weekend...

gotta work on sat the day is gone just like that...
dinner with song duck liang...
3 different bbq stingray + 1 bbq sotong + 1 prawn omelette
billiard pool then supper after that...

sun almost as wasted...
lucky met jane and had sakae sushi lunch...
else it'll end up a total waste...

insomnia had became my best friend recently
not a problem with getting to sleep
but keeping myself in sleep

slept at 5am yday
so tired
yet i woke up at 8am automatically...

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Is she my lucky charm or what?
when we were together, everything end up right

now that she's gone...
what's left for me is only a long run of bad luck

when will i hit the bottom of the ocean?
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- 1:13 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

just watched The Secret 2007 （不能說的秘密）
Nice sweet movie by Jay Chou

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follow the notes upon the journey..
The road back hidden in the fast Lane melody ..
the first sight is you destiny
with the rapid movement began incredible journey ...

跟隨音樂踏上旅程，
第一眼就注定了緣分；
當旅途走到盡頭，
回路藏在急速音律中
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if only i can play piano
if there is this mysterious music piece
The Secret~

If only i can turn back time or fast forward time
get out of the current time
finding back the old happiness
finding the new future happiness
as long as i'm out of here

Happiness...
something i longed for...
something i envy...
something i dislike...
something i hate...
because they don't belong to me

feels horrible to be feeling the opposite way when i see happiness

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Can someone teach me how love can reversed back into friendship?
Is love really irreversible?
why is there such a barrier between 2 person after love has ended?

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- 1:15 AM -
:: I made my mark ::

I'm tired...really tired...
tired of continuously falling...

where is my ocean floor...
where i can rest or bounce back...

had some nice conversation and was given some nice advise
enlightened with some career path to go
in fact i do wish to try them out...

sick and tired of doing whatever i'm doing
nice to still have some people who sees my existence

something i heard over radio: "is being happy really happiness?"

- 1:21 AM -
:: I made my mark ::